Over the years, I'd been contemplating on cutting my hair. People had been trying to convince me not to because I’m a woman and women aren’t supposed to have short hair. They told me that I wouldn’t look attractive with short hair. I actually believed them! I know a lot of barbers and they told me they wouldn’t cut my hair even if I paid them.
For months, I’d been looking at Instagram posts of women with short hair. That gave me so much motivation to go forward with this big chop. I was going to be turning 30 soon, so I decided that I wanted to cut my hair before my birthday. I picked a style and a barber to cut my hair. I felt like I would be cutting off dead weight. When people saw me, they noticed my hair, then my face. I’d had long hair for so long, I felt like it was time for a change. I wanted people to notice my face instead of my hair. After a year and some months of procrastination, I finally decided that I was going to cut my hair.
Fast forward to July 18, 2019. I left class and took a trip to the barber shop. On my way there. I felt a sense of nervousness. So many thoughts were running in my head. What if my head is shaped funny? Or what if the barber didn't know how to cut a woman’s hair? When I got to the barbershop, the barber was ready and waiting for me. I took off my hat and unraveled my two braids. He combed my hair out until it was a huge, red and black afro. He asked if I wanted a picture before he cut it. I told him no. I just wanted to get it over with because I knew that I might chicken out. I heard the sound of the clippers and shortly after saw my hair falling to the floor. I couldn't believe I was really doing it. I knew at that point there was no turning back. I honestly thought I was going to cry, but I took it pretty well. Once the barber was finished cutting and lining me up, he gave me a mirror so that I could see how I looked. At that moment, I felt a sense of relief. I felt free.
People had told me to not cut my hair. and A lot of them didn’t think that I was going to do it because I had put it off for so long. When I did it, I didn't tell anyone. I just posted a picture of my hair on the floor. Everyone was shocked. A guy who I was dating actually stopped talking to me. Not only did he stop talking to me, he blocked my number and he blocked me on all social media. I was shocked because I had never experienced anything like that before. But, it's fine. If a person can’t be with me because I have short hair, then I don't need them.
I'm very excited about this new journey. I can't wait to learn how to maintain my short hair as well as getting hair tips from other women with short haircuts. I’ve talked to women that I know who have or once had short hair and they all told me the same thing. Having short hair is freeing and feels like a weight is lifted off of your shoulders. I have to get adjusted to not having long hair. I’ve been getting so many compliments on my short hair and I feel my confidence going sky high! I can honestly say that this is one of the best decisions I've made in my life and I may never go back to long hair.
P.S. It's my birthday!